Y
yoururl@bs.com
HAHASS!!!
DE YI DE YI!!!
HAPPY HAPPY>>
LOL
anyway.. this is the pic that consist of most of the people that i've known in the past 17 years..
among them.. there are really a few that are really my really good friends..
i may not be very good in socialising.. i admit... not good at conveying, not good at communication, not good in many things!
but~that doesnt mean i didnt care..
friends.. they really do stand by ime in times of need.
that makes me differentiate between the really good friends.. and err.. not that good ones..
from young.. i have always been in the top 3 class.. good results seemed to ne guaranteeed.. that makes me really attractive to other kiasu students.. there is nothing wrong about kiasu.. i suppose.. however, you should know your limits.. maybe.. i have meet these people so many times that i am really afraid of new people.. i am basically afraid that i will get hurt.. i am to trusting.. meybe that will makes me more prone to backstabbing.. maybe this maybe that.. i dunno.. but i seem to have this fear.. a phobia about something that i cant really explain.. it is hard.. i dunno why..
however.. i am even more afraid that i've trust the wrong ones.. it occure before to me.. it is such a disappointment to me that i wanted to forget.. forget about the happy memories that we have together.. but can i? no. i simply cant.. friendships are a relationship that cant really be easily broken.. dont you think so?
i just hope i dont get to meet all those "you-know-who" type of people.. let the friendship last.. maybe they are the ones who will really accompany you till you grow old other than your future spouse.. what do you think..
like what shin says in goong.. like stars have their own revolution.. humans have them too.. 250,000,000 years.. at that time. we will meet again!!! hope thati true.. haha.. as for all those.. "ahem people"~simply run away from them.. since you know about their personality.. and you know you are going to meet them.. ESCAP!
sometimes.. i do try to want to make friends.. however.. it is hard.. friendly is one thing.. but classroom politics is another! it has been a year in sch, people have already formed their own clique.. so it is even more difficult ok.. LOL
but.. actually.. i dun care.or maybe i do.. and i am just lying to myself.. maybe.. hu knows.. i dun even.. do you.. i doubt so!
maybe sajc@06s17 has already given me too many memories.. that are pain mind you.. maybe that is why i want to escape.. i wanted jc life to end early..
pain memories.. dun ask what there are ba.. my close friends already know about them.. hai.. at least 1(name starts with c) i know she is my true friend.. what about the rest? ae they there because i am good in my studies? will they backstab? will they talk bad about me behind my back? will they.. hai dunno la..
once again.. a happy mood turns sour.. in the midst of turning it back... you must think i am rather diao ar... true la..
tml got work shadowing!!!! rocks on man! work shadowing @ nuh rehab.. jia you to myself..
suddenly remember what i friend told me```image hp as a ninja turtle chasing the bad guys in the drain.. act like a shadow.. diao la [-.-''']
sort of looking forward~
believe in yourself.. then... you have already win half the battle.. tt is what my mum says.. so listen ba.. hahas!