.Wednesday, March 12, 2008 ' 7:37 PM Y
finished munching
i emphasize.. i log not to prove anything
just my though abt tt quarrel
i alr find it strange when you read my blog
i KNOW someone tell you go and read
i quite sure
you say is tt true?
only tt i dun feel like asking who is it
i feel curios no doubt
but i retain my curoisity
quarrel
pr
and
blog abt the same thing in 2 diff days
and guess what
blog abt the same thing on 3 days
and i wonderng hat am i doing now
is there really a need to blog abt what i think
will someone come and read
except one
maybe you
i mean the one who is not from tt college
i mean.. i mean an i mean
and what does it matters most.. i mean..
a lot of ppl has been telling abt tt rlationsip
yes no doubt it has some truth
the truth that i try hard not to see
to cover my eyes
but
too bad
i cant make it
and guess what
it hapens to me all tt times
and after exams conditions
i was force to see thecruel truth
the truth i run away from
the truth that will break my heart
the truth tt i need to run away from in order not to be scarctic to you
thetruth that i run away from in order not to sad every single day
even weekends are not being fogiven
the truth..
yes
i jolly well knew the truth
and yet
the only true person i meet is her in college
though i seriously have plenty of things i have complained abt her
yes
she has a lot of htings tt i deem strange and weird
but she is true
and
whos the second in place
maybe
and
contracting
the one who quarrel with me all day long
the one
and
you guys know who is it
and
duh
everyone knows
yes it her
why
ppl say why
she is the one who will sms for fun
a sms of concern perhaps
agendas..
perhaps yes perhaps no
i dun want to look deep in it
for what?
find life in college not miserable enough?
i seriously had enogh of this kid of life this kind of feeling
enough is enough
rust whole heartedly
yes i did
i seriously di
i make friends whoever i meet who is friedly
why
i am shy
i dont talk much
this is my personality
so
who akes the first step
i am ok with it
it is hard to make the first step for mi perhaps
fine..
only when ppl step on my tail kick me in my butt before i actually rspond..
no such things initialy
until
one fine day
you make it stand up and be alert of my surroundings
i am sensitive
no doubt
but i trained tt in college
thank you very much
too many words behnd
tt i got to hear as well as not get to hear..
friendship not destroyed..
my hope and my wish too
not just yopurs
i dun want this to happen..
not me
who woud blog abt tt person and let everyone see so tt they can tell tt person who i am blogging and then start a quarrel?
i told you
i have enough
and
i got much more things to do
and
i want to replace all tt unhappiness in 2 years with more fulfilling life and smiles.
just one day.. 11 march and the days towards it can makeme smile at the phone
and the msn window as well
she even knows what kind of smile i have man
great friend
i want my 10th anniversary
what abt the rest
i want it too
ut can we get it
when i say i trust
and
i have no agendas till ppl treat me in a diff way
sensitivity
is all ppl say when i get hurts
my wing is broken
and
when will it rcover?
will we be able to remove the mask and
at the sme time
see the innocent face undr it?
or will we be just always be under the mask
and
ct all day long
i dont understand but i care..
the striking words i read
i just want to say
you are not th only one who cares...
i did not remember these on purpose..
i just remember
i dun forget things easily
it just stay in my mind
even i try to deete also canot
and trying to delete makes you thnk more abt it till you cant forget it.. have you hear of this phase in chinese?
so why not..
just let it stay ther quietly
maybe with time
i can forget..
are we ready to face the new year
ahead tt is whree we sure look
and
guess what
perhaps some even dun care
i can see
i can predict
cos
some are already like tt...
yes and no
anyway
i hope we can get more together..
the brown book i not for nothing
camp at ntu
the quarrel..
yes and no
frgive is the only word
i told you i cant forget
yes you have mr r..
i know
you are lucky to such friends
treasure
and i dun care if you think tt way
cosalot of ppl say tt way
but they didnt realised tt
i do tt cos they do tt to me..
one sided
think of their point
what at the other point
say already
but yet it does not man ppl will accept
and guess what
i am still helpless abt what ppl think...
and i simple blog can blow up matters...
and..
the point is..
the blog is not targetted at you
and guess what
a new obstacle
and guess what
you can sms me your ideas..
although some you al know
and gues what
i am not blogging for today already
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