.Saturday, May 24, 2008 ' 11:23 AM Y
finished munching
im blogging for a very frustrating irritating non-ending unbearable issue!
i was thinking where should i go
which uni??
i choose biz for all 3 local uni
at first i got 2 offers only.
ntu
smu
both are good
i dunno where to go seriously
i ask a lot of ppl
not just friends and family
i even ask the recruiters
i ask all the recruiters whom i know
and
a consultant
but.. every uni seemed to have its own supporters
and
i am stranded between the two again.
i like ntu
but i dun want to regret not gg to smu.
if i go to smu
but i dun want to regeret spending the next 3 yeras of life living painfully
jc years is already a disaster
i had ebouigh
seriously
even with office politics
i am much more happier
without ppl who hate me
ppl gossip
but they dont gossip abt me
they dun ... do the things i dont like
i thik i cant assimilate into the culture
then again..
i check nus website
and guess what
i was offered...
then what..
3 options
choose1
mcq seemed to be easy usually
at most i choose one mark
but i guess
it is really a very difficult decision
ppl in my clique are all gg to nus
maybe if i dun go nus
i may not need to face the person who hates me
and
the ppl ard tt person
whom..
i think have no nice and goodie opinions abt me
maybe
what you say is just what you say:
we are discerning people who will not hate one becos others hates me
well... i do hope so
im not optimistic
i know
but
maybe did you ever realize why am i getting this kind of feeling?
no you dont
you just dont
and
dont ever say
i want people to live up to my expectations!
and
i think
i am gonna to remember this phrase this sentence
for the rest of my life
who ask me to have a good memory
remember this sentence then..
from me to you:
why am i getting this kind of feeling then.
i know what you are gg to say
hp is emo-ing again
then again: why she is emo?
why
will i really not go there because of unfriendiness i sense?
hp do not follow crowds
i follow my own heart
i will stand strong
and get be deter by the person who hates me
if i go there
maybe
i can make an effort
to avoid the fac she is in
maybe
she will not hate me as much?
i just realize i should stop
whats the use of saying so much?
in case someone starts gossipping about you again
